I'MTHEREALDIVA

So me and my bsf won't be able to contact regularly anymore. Our interaction might be reduced to once in awhile. His phone's being taken until his academic situation improves. He's cooked fr so he'll have to change if he wants his phone back. We finished our last call just now. It's over an hour. Most of the time we're silent just being comfy in the other's presence; which isn't normal for us. Neither of us have ever been on a call lasting longer than a few minutes w/o getting uncomfy. It's funny how for him I'm the right person to come in his life at the right time before he spiraled; whilst in my case he's the wrong person to come in my life at the wrong time. Yet we've gotten so close in the span of a few months. Ik I don't show my gratitude enough. But then again, there's never been tys or srys between us. We just silently agreed on things; while roasting e/o but still respecting e/o's boundaries. All his thoughts has been negative but I've done a great job motivating him. That's how he started trusting me. I never expected to actually be a bit sad when we had to stop talking cuz we're e/o's safe spaces. But we've promised e/o to keep fighting and occasionally update each other. He was so depressed before I came and I'm glad I could teach him how to take inspiration from even the most negative thing (from personal experiences and lessons taught by my parents). I was sad when he told me not to forget him or replace him cuz even tho I don't get attached and can easily cut off ppl, it isn't the same for him. But tho our friendship isn't that long, I don't think I'll let go. I don't necessarily gain anything from this friendship and can easily move on. But Ig it's just, tho I don't need to talk to people, it still feels good when I can tell him everything without getting judged (doesn't mean he forgets to roast me... But he never wins anyway)
          So at last, buddy, I don't think you'll have the chance to read this, but! Know that I'll be here for you.

Okayy everyone! The 2nd chapter of "UNFAITHFUL BONDS" has finally been uploaded! 
          
          My health condition is not very good TT
          
          Hope you enjoy the story! ～(^з^)-♡

I just realised the way I start a conversation with my male best friend is the typical "Yo dude" or "Hey broo" but! My guy starts a conversation with "Yo bae" or "Hey babe" T.T (Also especially when he needs my help. That hoe). When I told him that, I was laughing so hard and he was annoyed af (lmao). He admitted that despite him being a pure masc and a dom, I still somehow bring the little bit of feminism hidden inside him XD. Ig everybody has a hidden pookie side to them, huh?

I always feel like a burden as I've always been sick since the day I came into the world. Though my parents never allows me to think like that, I still wish I wasn't like this. I'm always needing treatment and medication which definitely costs a lot. And it's even more hard when my mother is suffering from high blood pressure, diabetes, heart problems and vertigo. It's hard for both my parents to take care of me. Especially about food cuz I can't eat normally. I feel nauseous and can't even have foods that I used to love. They always needs to force me to take medicine cuz I always throw a tantrum. I mean, who likes to swallow 4-5 pills all at once? But there are also moments where I make my parents proud too. Like, if you're asking for a definition of what a perfect daughter is like.... Well, here I am. Not only helping around the house with chores and being a perfect wife material despite being sick 365 but also living up to the reputation of my father and leaving an incredible impression on all. Today my father's friend came over. And he definitely loved me. None of my other siblings (I only have two other sisters. One older and the other younger) came out. But I was there serving him and my father dinner and eating with them afterwards while discussing my studies and business (I'm only 15). We talked about the business planning I'm working on (all by myself) and will soon start (pray for me). These are the moments when I feel like I've made my parents proud.
          
          
          Sharing it here cuz I've no friends to share it with T.T

Is it just me or does any of you other girls here have period this frequently? Like I've been having period twice a month and even worse almost thrice... Idk if this is a serious problem but illness doesn't seem to leave my side. What a loyal companion -_-

I just taught my dumb bestie another lesson. Though it was clearly an insulting remark but also very meaningful and encouraging (don't judge that's how I motivate him plus it was beautifully written too (￣^￣)). But I feel really proud of him and myself as well when he seems to take my words in the way that I want him to and is good for him. He had a toxic situationship before (which I think is stupid; cuz it indeed is) and he's also surrounded by a bunch of punks that doesn't treat him well but he's still stuck with them because they're the only friends he has (we live in different cities) and I'm glad I've been able to drag that bitch back on track and show him his true self worth and tell him to change his self for people that actually cares for him instead of trying to prove himself (he doesn't even have anything to prove to them) to people that doesn't see his worth. And he genuinely found it helpful and appreciates it as he's an adhd kid but has never really had anybody to guide him or never even had anybody who could see through him and understand him. While I can be comfortable with him and talk about my stressful situations which he'll listen to carefully only to make fun of later. But he knows our sense of humour is similar so I'd get his joke which will only lighten our moods. Now we're really good buddies. Whenever he loses his track, I get him back. And whenever I feel troubled, I have a friend to share it with.
          
          Though I'm having trouble typing, I still wanted to share this after seeing how much progress we've both (especially him) made after meeting each other. Him because he has someone to show him the right path and me because I always have to prove myself superior than him lol.
          
          But at the end, I'm proud of us both.
          
          So, keep fighting bitch!

I just had a head on collision with a metal cage. I think I had a minor concussion or something. My head, ears, neck and shoulders hurts. I'm getting momentarily vision blurrs. My balance is off and my movements are shaky and sluggish. Even writing this thing is giving me a hard time cuz my fingers are shaky and I keep making typing mistakes. I just wanted to share this despite knowing no one will probably read it.

Just got back from the hospital. Fortunately nothing severe like last time. But surely a bunch of meds and more doctors cuz my father ain't gon stop there. He needs to make sure that I get the best treatment (I'm grateful and I love him). But I hate going to the doctors TT. And my parents are gonna take me to a nutrition or whatever that is. Hopefully I'll get better

Guys Ik you won't read this but I need help! There's a 1 above my notification icon but when I enter there's no new notification and the number disappears but the moment I step out of notifications, the number reappears TT

I really hate my fucking life. Tho I get a lot of privileges but who likes being sick! True I always get my way with everything but I'm basically being treated as a patient! Just yesterday I was taken to the hospital and then once again– a shit ton of fucking tests. Like this will probably be the 7th fucking time I'll be doing an ultra-sonography over the past few months. Then what was all the previous ultras, CT scan, x-ray and– and the shit ton of other tasts that y'all did on me? Y'all can't even pin point exactly what's wrong with me? Like, even the docs are confused. The most painful tests were the CT scan for my stomach and all of the blood tests TT