sending love to everyone.
the death of liam has hit me much harder than i anticipated. i'm still not sure if i'm grieving him or the situation and what it means.
i was not a fan of him since his solo activities began, and i certainly did not support the person he had become as revealed by his ex-fiance and fans (some of whom i actually knew when i was younger and meeting the boys). his death is undeniably tragic, though. the circumstances of it, and the fact that his loss will completely alter the lives of his family.
i grieve for his son, especially, and worry how this will impact him. such a young age to experience loss, but made even harder as it happens under the scrutiny of the public eye.
liam was a part of something so monumental to us - i would not have my friends without one direction, and certainly not as many happy moments. for many of us, we grow up alongside them, and without even knowing us helped us navigate our struggles and pain. it truly is a gift to have those memories to look back on, and to still cherish even as i approach my thirties.
i hope you're all doing well, and please know that your grief is very much real. there is a kind of grief called disenfranchised grief: grieving someone you do not know and do not feel like you have a right to, but still being impacted by. it's as powerful as grieving someone you do know personally. just as nuanced, just as complicated.
look after yourselves.
cel x
