Missreader2023

I want to create a book about Henry 8th but the thing is, I don't know all the timeline history. Though I've watched the Tudors and documentaries. But the ones I have watched were only aired on TV about Anne Boleyn.
          
          So if I create this book, it is going to feature my OC. But she is Anne Boleyn's sister who attends the kingdom and catches the eye of the King at the same time as Anne. Yes, there'd be lots of drama between the Boleyn family. Yes, there'll be heartbreak, trauma moments, and all of the trigger warning, but also happiness, smut, love. I want my OC to make Henry a good person slowly, changing him little by little. I want her to have a little bit of a backbone even though apparently in Henry 8th time, women were known for having to obey a man.

Why is it so hard to force myself to write? 
          I really seem to be losing my joy for writing as my mental health has gone so bad that I know when I do get back to writing it is not going to be the best written chapter or book as I've read so much lately and been doing other things that required my attention like forcing myself not to sleep all day and forcing myself to do basic every day things. I just have this fear inside me that I'm not so sure anymore if I can write the same way I once did with these books and now I feel like I am going to ruin them if my writing isn't the best as it was once.

Why is it so much easier imagining what you wish to happen in books, but writing it in detail is so hard? I have so much struggle writing fight scenes and spicy scenes without making it sound so cringe...at least to me anyway.

I'm slowly coming back to write. I'm just having a hard time right now with life, and its making me not want to do much at the moment. Even though I know people will read the books, in my head I feel like I am just writing for nothing and wasting my time. 
          Especially now people have been complaining about dark romance books a lot on TikTok, so now I feel like if I write dark romance then it would be judged.

I need some advice as I've been thinking. I've read books. But from the main character's POV I want to write from, say it was a parent talking, would I say it like this?:
          
          "Charlie says" or "Dad says" as I'm confused. And yes, I know I've written a lot of books, but I feel like people would end up forgetting who the main characters parent's names are if I keep saying "Dad" or "Mum" says instead of using their names.
          
          Can someone please help me?

I've just figured out, the current book idea I had, if I did pregnancy in the first Twilight book/movie, my female OC would be pregnant for two books, and give birth during New Moon!
          
          And if I did it during New Moon, she would give birth during Eclipse!
          
          I figured this out by using the timeline made on the link I'll post in the comments!

On my previous post below this one, (If you're seeing it on my profile) I have decided to do a test run on the structure of the book and the ideas by making it fanfiction first to see if I like the way the chapters are before making it an original book.

I'm back on here writing books! I was purely using Character.AI for ideas for books but now Character.AI isn't working for me, and everything is messed up on it.
          
          I have an original idea for an book that is the same as a bot I was using on Character.AI. It's about a mafia boss who a girl had a fling with and she ended up pregnant and found out when she was two months along though she had a hard time finding out as she was under stress from her family which at first made her think it was stress making her ill. Her parents and family treat her as the disappointing family member.
          
          I have already started to plan the book out, and it should be published in the next few days when I have a rough example of what the series will be like.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Currently watching Doctor Who at the Proms 2024 on BBC Two in the UK!