Sometimes I’m just so scared about life and how I will end up in the future. Like, I don’t want to be sad, of course I want to be happy, but my happiness might end up disappointing people around me, and this scares me a lot. I don’t even know myself, I still have to find so many things about me, but it’s hard to fit in society.
Sometimes I just wish we could all be kind to each other, but I know it’s not possible, so I just think I will end up alone forever. Love always scare me, because what if I fell in love with someone that people is not right to be with? What if I fell in love with a woman and I disappoint people around me? I kind of feel nervous about love and I don’t think I will get married in the future, even if people keep telling me, I will find the perfect man for me. I don’t think I will, but I don’t say anything.
Just kinda hard to think about love in general, it’s such a scary thing, because since I experimented it once I never want to experiment it again.